hai hai..

aint easy to live a life kann..huhuhu..tetiba ja ckp ceni...itula..sebenarnya susah nk dapat apa yg kita inginkan...mmg kena usaha...some believe in hard work..same believe in fate or chance..whatever it is..life couldnt be as easy as eating cake or whatever that taste good..huh..i dunno what am i merepek nii..it just..now i realize (actualy da lama da realize ni) ..idup ni mmg penuh cabaran..iaitu ibarat roda..i realy believe in that..sometimes we are in the peak of living a life as we wanted...some other day we thinking of is this hell or what???huhuhu

me too..dulu ku xpercaya pada hardwork...coz sometime working hard pun receive noting gk kann.. ku salu usaha usaha la gak...tp time spm aritu..result truk gk..mulala ku nk salahkan kehidupan..tp bila da masuk life kt u ni..ku siyes xusaha..usaha yg sangat sikit..tetiba result..terbaekk ahh!!teruk xtau nk habaq...brula ku sedaq..im not a smart student..so i have to study hard to gain something.. but still..im not realy working my ass hard...ohh...sgt rugi...i dunno why is it so hard for me to put a very damn effort on something..ada 1 sem 2..ku usaha lebih sket...n at that semester..finally i got sikit ok compared on others sem..so hard work sometime got payback..but sometime ppl doesnt noticed our hardwork...its ok...as long as we knew what we did..

now i really got worried because i still doesnt have place for practical..i want to graduate...sometime i feel why its very hard for me to get something..it just...i know that i less of hard work..sometime it get me jealous on ppl who did less but gain more..i dunno..huhuhu..its ok..just for some ppl who did less or anything like that..they sure have they own prob rite...sure do..xdk org kt dunia ni yg puas dgn sumanya yg dia ada...but im grateful of what god gave me..it just i have to fix me..when i look at my mother,its sad because i know she want more..she doesnt say anything to me...she doesnt know what am i doing at u..n she thought i am studying..i know..deep in her heart...she proud of her daughter...but me..i just not a good best daughter she ever had..im sorry mother..i'll make sure u see me graduated..

i want to be a better person that i wouldnt be since i breathe..i waste 22 years...i dont want to waste my life anymore..